Gracie Gold is speaking out, telling everyone about her harrowing battle with depression, revealing how close she came to taking her life.

In an interview with the New York Times, the two-time U.S. national champion figure skater who was once seen as a rising star in her sport opened up about her demons.

“I was suicidal for months,” Gold said. “If I had just continued the way I was in Detroit, I’d probably be dead.”

Gold’s slide started after the 2016 World Figure Skating Championships, when a fall from first after the short program to fourth after the free stake was devastating.

“It wasn’t just her pain,” her mother Denise said. “It was her family’s pain. It was her agent’s pain. It was the country’s pain. It was that she was letting everyone down.”

She was gorging on food, leading to significant weight gain, sleeping 24 hours at a time — or staying up for days, sometimes skipping workouts. Gold thought about taking her life repeatedly. The lights of her apartment were frequently off. She was living in darkness. She never realized how scary depression was until she lived it.

“I’d hear someone say, ‘I’m so depressed,’ and I’d think, ‘Tough it out,’” the 23-year-old Gold recalled.

After being treated for depression, an eating disorder and anxiety, she is making a comeback. Gold began training again nine months ago and has dropped 30 pounds. She still has a ways to go — Gold finished 10th and last in the short program at the Moscow round of the Grand Prix in November — but is encouraged by her progress.

“You forget how magical those moments are,” she said.