Seven-time Olympic gold medalist Caeleb Dressel revealed the dark personal training logbook entries he’s saved for the last 10 years in a new interview and some are chilling.

“Yeah, f–k me, f–king terrible. My body is done,'” Dressel read from his swim log during the interview on “In Depth With Graham Bensinger” Wednesday. He said that specific entry was logged a month out from the Olympic trials, but did not specify which year.

Dressel, who turns 26 in August, won two gold medals at the 2016 Rio Olympics and five more at the 2020 Tokyo Games. He competed at the 2012 Olympic trials, but did not make the US Olympic team that year.

“‘F–k me. F–k my body. F–k swimming,'” he read. “Jeez. Yeah, there’s a totally different side of the sport that a lot of people don’t see… I try to be as honest with myself as I can in these books, ’cause these aren’t for — well until now — these aren’t really for anybody else’s eyes,” she added, laughing.

“Oh jeez … I know I’m laughing a little bit, but when you’re writing this, this isn’t as a joke. This is good information,” said Dressel — who would look back at his log look while training and “usually when I’m freaking out on taper and your body starts to feel like trash.

“I probably have maybe 12 notebooks full … the old school composition notebooks of every practice I’ve done since around 15 or 16 [years old]. I try to keep it as detailed as I can. I rarely look back at them to be honest. Maybe one day it’ll be valuable. Maybe I can sell them … Every time I get in my own head I’ll flip back and be like, ‘Oh the same thing happened last year.'”

Dressel said he experienced panic attacks and depression as a result of his swimming career.

“I didn’t want to do anything,” he recalled of a low point while swimming in his senior year of high school. “Wasn’t going to school, wasn’t swimming. [I] was pretty much just laying in bed for all hours of the day, for a couple months.”