Maria Leo, mother of crane-collapse victim Donald Leo, read a letter written by his fiancée, Janine Belcastro, in court yesterday. The following is an excerpt:

“The impact on my life is immeasurable . . . I live alone in a condo we bought together, underwater in a mortgage and anxious about the future.

“I am still mourning the loss of my love, as well as mourning the life that we planned together.

“To get condolence cards and last-minute wedding RSVPs on the same day was surreal . . . Friends and family who would have been dancing with us at the wedding I saw at the funeral. My engagement ring mocking me on my finger.

“It’s a horrible tragedy that should never have happened. I still get sick when I think of his last moments, and how horrible they must have been.”

Referring to reports Leo was working the morning shift because they’d planned to meet with the priest about their wedding that afternoon, she wrote:

“I try to block that piece out of my mind. How do I live with that? That he was in the wrong place at the wrong time because of me, because of us. Intellectually, I know it’s not my fault. I ask the guilty be held responsible.”